..my beauty specialist..

last night i fell asleep in front of tv after dinner at home.

then my sleep was distracted. Dlm mamai2 tuh, rse mcm sumthing touching my face plus bunyi ini:

"Bgn, g basuh muke..berminyaknye muke..xcantik!!"

Hehe, that was my husband cum my beauty specialist.

He likes to examine my face.
So klu aku try ape2 produk baru n nk tau the result of the product, biasenye aku tnye die je.
And usually he noticed la (klu ade improvement, biasenye xde..)

But, despite his concern about my face, he didnt mind muke aku yg teruk (jerawat n parut) mase mule2 kenal/bercinta dulu, kan...hmm..

..The most touching scene on movies/tv series/drama..

today is saturday n i'm working for raya replacement..

just after lunch, there were less than 10 people still in office..mule la nyesal nape la x amik halfday or just cuti jek ari nih...nasib baik la isnin ni cuti..leh la qada' tido hehehe..
xde ape pon yg nk diupdate kat blog ni..just killing the time - menunggu kul 5..huhu..

nk cite pasal raye - mcm dh terlambat jek..ni dh nk abih syawal pon..or maybe aku dh ade post pasal rye on my previous kot?aaa...penyakit pelupe nih mcm makin teruk jek...tidak!!!!

so tringt this idea yg dh lame terpk tp malas nk tulih..
first, nk kutuk filem/drama melayu..hehe..yg selalu 'over-acting' bile babak sedih..

the most fav touching moment yg sgt meberi kesan bg aku adalah:

1. Desperate Housewives Year 3.
Scene mase Susan decided to marry Ian. Mike left hs message on the answering machine.
And Susan played it again and again.
It's simple and it's real. Because to me, I would spantaneously do that, too, if in that situation.
Sgt sedih scene tu... :'(

huhu

..hari raya post..

today it's already 15th day of raya..

.:SELAMAT HARI RAYA & MAAF ZAHIR BATIN :.

this year is the first time raya as a wife. a lot of changes, but all is well and fair. hehe.

..rage and anger..

all this while i've been dealing with this anger for quite some time. luckily i'm living away from this thing that annoys me like hell.
on and on, it keeps bothering me and my life, direct or indirectly. can't u just leave us alone and not making trivial things so complicated and hurting people who helped u a lot all this while?
yes, human tends to forget easily every deed that people have them to them. and you are no different at all. the typical forgetful n ungrateful thing.
how can u say such words to the person who helped u a lot without ever asking u to pay anything in return?
although u're not saying it to me, but i really dont understand how could u say such things??!!
i really hope u'll grow up and stop making other people miserable with your unwise decision.
and when u can do a little bit of 'noble deed', does it mean u cant forget all troubles u caused people around u before and that gives the license to u to forget people's sacrifice before and condemn them all along?
damn, what were u thinking??!!!
grow up, dude!!!!!

well, if u really want to play this game, then fine. let's play. u already lost long time ago. i've defeated u, cant u see?!!

Personality Test

You Are An ISTP

The Mechanic You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations. A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent. To outsiders you seem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable. You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people. In love, you tend to be very easy going and flexible. The only thing you can't stand for is someone trying to change you or your life. At work, you can stay completely calm under pressure. You handle stress well. You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete. How you see yourself: Logical, flexible, and unconventional When other people don't get you, they see you as: Indecisive, flippant, and disrespctful

What's" Your Personality Type?

i am unsuccessful???

i've been told by someone close to me that i am - unsuccessful..the moment i heard that, i was like - wwhat??
that statement didnt come out from her directly, of course but no matter how the words hit me, it cut me real deep.
just because u involved in that MLM biz n claimed that u make thousands of money per month doesnt make me a failure, alright?

..wedding nerve..

it's more or less one week left before updating my status to - WIFE.
as for me who always worries a lot, this preparation thing sumtimes feels like suffocating.
yeah - i worried a lot. and might even be worrying for nothing.

thank God that i'm not the first in sibling to get married. thanks to buyan for sparing me a little space to breathe. the thought that she had been thro' this before and all is well to her, that motivates me a lot. and she even has become a mother now (which will help motivating me when the time comes later huhu)

as for invitation, i published the announcement in my friendster, in polymer yahoo grup and ssp yahoo grup.. (well, even in this blog as i'm writing this).

some people complained that i didnt announce my engagement last time. but even when i published my wedding announcement, they dont really seem to bother. but what the heck, i have my own reason for not announcing my engagement then. and it's the wedding that we have to announce to people.

right now, i just hope that all would be well and just fine - both for my wedding and marriage.

Please pray for me.

..Kisah Borang Nikah..

Macam-macam dugaan nak kawen..Pas satu-satu..

Ari ni aku pegi submit borang kahwin dengan harapan akan dapat setel hari ni jugak walaupon dlm hati aku ade terdetik jugak yang "x akan setel ari ni".

rupenye betulla kata hati aku td tuh..Petugas kaunter tuh suruh aku pegi blok A, tingkat 4 tuk ambik kebenaran kawen sbb name aku. Kene mintak kebenaran istana la, menghadap sultan ke ape tah die ckp...Aku terkedu seketika..Xpenah terpk plak yg itu akan jadi dugaan aku kali ni..igtkan borang xlengkap ke, lampiran xlengkap ke..

Aku yang patah hati terus buat keputusan utk daftar kat kemaman ajek. Sebab menurut adik aku yang dh berkahwin dulu ataupun melangkah bendul dlm erti kate lain, kat terengganu xde plak perkara seperti itu..

Ayah aku kate, die takut org istana kawen lari ngn org biase..Tapi klu kat terengganu, mmg dh ramai name cam kitorg so dh xheran..kelakar..tah pape kerenah birokrasi kerajaan nih. memeningkan kepala aku jek..

14/4/2008

i am an aunt now...congratulation sis, for your cute little princess. so happy for you. ;)

Hormat keputusan istana

KUALA LUMPUR 23 Mac – Badan Perhubungan UMNO Negeri Terengganu perlu menghormati keputusan yang dibuat oleh Majlis Penasihat Pemangku Raja (MPPR) dan tidak seharusnya menolak pelantikan Ahli Dewan Undangan Negeri (ADUN) Kijal, Datuk Ahmad Said sebagai Menteri Besar secara terbuka.

Ketua UMNO Bahagian Cheras, Datuk Syed Ali Al- Habshee berkata, tindakan UMNO Terengganu yang menentang secara terang-terangan pilihan MPPR itu secara tidak langsung mencerminkan sikap biadap mereka yang tidak menghormati kedaulatan kesultanan Melayu.

‘‘Kalau kita ada masalah kita kena duduk berbincang, sultan adalah kedaulatan orang Melayu, saya khuatir rakyat hilang kepercayaan.
‘‘Bukan dengan cara macam ini (bantah), kurang ajar dengan Sultan,’’ katanya ketika dihubungi Utusan Malaysia di sini hari ini.

Semalam, MPPR mengeluarkan kenyataan yang menamakan Ahmad Said, 51, sebagai Menteri Besar Terengganu yang baru.

Pelantikan tersebut mengenepikan Pengerusi Badan Perhubungan UMNO Negeri, Datuk Seri Idris Jusoh yang mendapat watikah pelantikan sebagai Menteri Besar bagi penggal kedua daripada Perdana Menteri, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi berikutan kemenangan besar pada Pilihan Raya Umum Ke-12 pada 8 Mac lalu.

Ekoran kenyataan daripada Pejabat Sultan Terengganu itu, 23 ADUN Barisan Nasional (BN) menolak pelantikan itu dan berikrar berdiri teguh di belakang kepimpinan Idris.
Syed Ali memberitahu, tindakan UMNO Terengganu itu sendiri tidak seiring dengan apa yang diperjuangkan oleh parti tersebut selama ini terhadap kedaulatan Raja-Raja Melayu.
Malah katanya, perbuatan menentang keputusan yang dibuat oleh MPPR oleh UMNO Terengganu seperti ‘meludah ke langit, terkena muka sendiri’.

‘‘Kita marah apabila DAP memulaukan keputusan Istana Perak, malah, kita memaki-hamun DAP kerana menderhaka kepada Sultan tetapi di Terengganu keadaan terbalik pula, UMNO Terengganu sanggup menentang Sultan yang juga merupakan Yang di-Pertuan Agong secara terbuka,’’ tegasnya.

Beliau memberitahu, UMNO Terengganu perlu mengambil iktibar dengan situasi yang berlaku pada ketika ini dan bukannya memalukan orang Melayu sebegini rupa.

‘‘Saya minta mereka hentikan perkara mengarut ini, jangan sampai rakyat hilang keyakinan,’’ ujarnya.

Syed Ali turut menggesa UMNO Terengganu agar menyelesaikan perbalahan mengenai jawatan Menteri Besar Terengganu mengikut saluran yang betul dan menanganinya dengan cara yang berhemah.


My personal comment: I just have few questions.
1.What is with Idris Jusoh?
2.What is with Terengganu? (Because things has settled in Perlis and even in the mixed-govern state (Perak, Selangor)- but is still not in Terengganu)
3.What is the difference between UMNO Terengganu and DAP Perak?
4.Lastly, (not a question) i think we're starting to smell sumthing fishy. Let's wait and see.

DAULAT TUANKU!!

Malaysia decide

i'm not too much of a political person. but in a way, i do have my own opinion.

at first, i just wanted PAS to win in Terengganu (and of course, to stay as Kelantan's govt). too dissapointed that PAS lost in Terengganu - again. What were these people thinking??Being a "bandaraya pesisir air" citizen is really that great??? Having Monsoon Cup also can feed them???
If it is really so, then how come we still have to 'migrate' to other side of the country to find a job if we dont really have big cable to work in Terengganu?

ECER la konon...

one of my office mate claimed that "byk yg dlm rancangan Bersamamu tu orang Kelantan" - haha...If they want to make every episode to be about only poor Kelantan people, do you people really think that only Kelantan people is poor in Malaysia??

Oh, i forgot, every johor citizen is RICH, that's why they have their 'setinggan' population, right?

Ross

yesterday while driving back from office, i listened to Mix.FM.

my all-time favourite deejay was on air but sadly, he announced that it was going to be his last shift.

even i dont know much about him, and recently, i didnt listen that much to him - but surely, i am going to miss his voice. All the best to you, Ross...

and right after his announcement, one summarization of my life in terms of music flashed in my mind.

started from my life at Sespi, i started to learn about music - which i bought my first cassette - NOW. it was an complition album with Bon Jovi, Wet Wet Wet, MLTR, Ace of Base and a few more (that i'm sure i'll remember if i try harder..)
I even bought Backstreet Boys' during the first few years in Sespi.
Then, influnced by my uncle (my late Paksu), i started to listen to OAG, Nirvana, Metallica, Cranberries, Saturnine, Greenday, Butterfingers, a few other local underground band. Those years were like learning to listen to good songs as well as learning things in friendship. Most of the songs still in my list - so does all my friends back then.

During my years at college, now that i'm refresehing the memory and relate it with music, all i can think is - at that stage of my life - those are the best songs shared with good friends. A lot of songs that are still in my favourite was from during that stage of life.
Like Yellow (The Calling), (Yellow) Coldplay, (Kryptonite, Loser) 3 Doors Down, Ava Adore (Smashing Pumpkins) and the list goes on...

we shared one radio and listened to same songs, sometimes even scribble the lyrics in the lecture hall. college life was the shortest, but the friendship i think was one of the deepest. really miss you guys, even now, maybe we're all on our own path, and some might even forget, but to me, you guys are always close to my heart. all songs seem good, maybe because i share it with good friends. that was when i started to listen to Sheila on 7...

going to uni, i think that was my depression stage. a lot of sad things happened during that stage, so, for as long as i can remember, listening to that time's song reminds me to only pain. Songs from Evanescene (Bring Me To Life, My Immortal), Linkin' Part (Numb, Somewhere I Belong), Coldplay (The Scienties), Sheila on 7 (Buat Aku Tersenyum), Creed, Story of The Year (Until The Day I Die), 3 Doors Down (Here Without You), Peterpan (Semua Tentang Kita)..I even bought Eminem's cassette on my first year - because listening to his life disappointments made me feel that i wasnt alone.

Even good songs remind me of disappointment. Too many painful things and there was not really anyone to cry on.

Now I guess I'm back to normal. I am with Syam. Funny, he doesnt listen to my favourite music and i dont listen to his. But so far, we get along just fine. Sometimes, i couldnt help but laughing everytime he listens to his songs while driving and singing heartfully along with the song. I wasnt laughing at his choice of music but i found it amusing on how different we are, but still, we manage to keep this relationship strong.

As for me, I'm still listening to my stuff. Currently fall in love with "Hey There Delilah" - Plain White T's.

..neverending questions..

what does it take to make the right decision?

what if we've mistakenly chosen the wrong path? could we possibly turn back and start over again?or, are things never be the same again?

how do we know when to stop or when to work things out?

and even if things look still bearable, what if it's wrong to stay?

what if it's wrong to be patience?

when things are painful today, we all hope for a better tomorrow. But what if it's still raining tomorrow?

is it true that time heal all pain?

why are things are too fragile and are too difficult?

is it all my fault - when i've tried the best that i can?

the sad thing is, i dont have the answers at all.

..low self-esteem..

i am the person who easily gives up. always predict things would always turn out bad - which is always does. i am esily turned down, because i have problem with my self-esteem. some people sort of made fun of me getting help from those self-help books, but i have to admit, i am fragile and i need to refresh and patch up my soul often.
sometimes i just dont have the courage to change and even to appreciate myself more. my self-esteem is extremely low.
right now, i really feel low - due to one thing just happened. i asked myself 'what is wrong with me?' which i couldnt answer.
i just heard myself questioning me back - 'what exactly that can make me happy?'
love, career, companion, money, what?
i think the real problem is that i worry too much. yeah, people say worries do not lessen the burden of tomorrow, they lessen the strength of today..i know that, but still, i am worried.
maybe i should just go back home and rest.

..SHUT UP..

sumtimes i wish i could just shout "SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!".

how does it feel to talk about yourself only all day long?dont you feel tired bragging about yourself?for Godsake, please shut up...

i was so over you

this morning, i was so pissed off at this one guy. and the reason i write this - i hope he'll read it.

most of the times, i dont have problem to track down long-lost people because i have this details-conscious-cell in me.


so, what is wrong with you?think i'm still stupid, still hoping that u'll feel sorry for me after all of this while?

come-on, lighten up. i was so over you, long time ago, because it's not hard to realize that you were just not right for me. i am good and i deserve better than you. u knew that.

in case u still dont know, i have engaged to this man - who is willing to do everything to protect me. yes, i deserve this kind of man.

feel sorry for yourself. it's not like i care about you getting married. i dont give a damn. but, a little bit sorry for your future wife - because i doubt if she really knows the real you.

but what the heck - i dont give a damn.

..a trendy malaysia..

malaysia is a trendy country.

the current trend is - (for girls) getting caught in foreign countries for drug smuggling.
trend setter:Raja Munirah

there's a bunch of similar cases recently after her conviction in Japan. i mean, what's with these people?are they purposely 'following' the trend or what?

and this wasnt too long after the bus-crashing trend. still remember that season of bus-crashing, one after another?

and what about the 'ajaran-sesat' thing?it had its season, too. when one is revealed, the others were lining up to be appeared in media as well.

so did the snatching thing, mat rempit, blablabla..

maybe the media just 'over-play' their role - because sometimes, too much exposure does not only teach people to stay away from it, but also to try it.

or maybe malaysia is really just a trendy country. do they possibly have the come-back scene also?who knows?

..selamat hari raya aidiladha..

selamat hari raya aidiladha, kawan2..

..Fix You..

it's an old song, but i still listen to it every now and then.this song would always be in my playlist - just like 'The Scientist'.

try to listen to it, especially when you're upset.

"Fix You"

When you try your best,
but you don't succeed
When you get what you want,
but not what you need

When you feel so tired,
but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone,
but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your faceAnd I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

..keberkatan hidup..

some people dont have much, but things are always sufficient.

some have much, but keep on feeling as if they need more.

why?

all this have got something to do with 'keberkatan hidup'. so let me share with you this story, which forwarded by a friend of mine. thanks, this is really inspiring.


Kisah-1
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Ketika belajar di Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia,
Salleh (bukan nama sebenar) telah bertemu jodoh dengan
isterinya Siti Rahmah (bukan nama sebenar). Salleh
mengambil jurusan kejuruteraan manakala Siti Rahmah
mengambil bidang perakaunan. Sekarang mereka telah 15
tahun berkahwin dan dikurniakan Allah dengan 7 orang
anak. Beberapa bulan yang lepas saya berkunjung ke
rumah Salleh di Kajang. Kebetulan pada pagi Ahad itu
selepas solat Subuh di Masjid Kajang saya bertemu
dengan Salleh. Dia terus mengajak saya ke rumahnya.
Dia menyewa rumah teres setingkat tidak jauh dengan
Masjid.

Saya mengenalinya sejak hampir 10 tahun yang lalu.
Pagi itu tidak sedar kami telah berbual-bual hampir
lima jam. Saya ingin berkongsi tentang keluarga Salleh
ini yang pada saya satu contoh keluarga yang mendapat
keberkatan Allah.

1. Salleh bekerja makan gaji dan pendapatan bersihnya
sebulan kurang dari RM3000.

2. Isterinya adalah anak sulung, walaupun berkelulusan
ijazah namun menjadi suri rumah sepenuh masa atas
kehendak Salleh. Sebagai penghargaan kerana isterinya
sanggup tidak bekerja, Salleh memberikan RM300 sebulan
kepada ibu-bapa mertuanya setiap bulan.

3. Di samping itu Salleh juga memberi kepada ibunya di
kampung RM200 sebulan. Bapa Salleh telah meninggal
dunia.

4. Dia memiliki Toyota Unser dengan ansuran RM500
sebulan.

5. Dia membayar rumah sewa RM400 sebulan.

6. Di rumahnya serba lengkap dengan perabot (TV, Peti
Sejuk, Mesin Basuh, Set Sofa) serta teratur dan kemas.

7. Pelik tetapi benar, bil elektrik dirumahnya kurang
dari RM20 sebulan sedangkan jirannya tidak pernah
kurang dari RM60. TNB dah buat pemeriksaan bahawa
meter di rumahnya tidak rosak. Begitu juga dengan bil
air kurang dari RM10 sebulan.

8. Empat orang anaknya dihantar ke sekolah agama
integrasi.

9. Bayangkan dia boleh hidup dengan Selesa walaupun
gajinya kecil jika di nisbahkan dengan keluarganya
yang agak besar.

Sejak berkawan dengannya ada beberapa perkara yang
saya lihat jadi amalan dia yang patut di contohi:-

1. Solat Duha menjadi amalan hariannya walaupun ketika
pergi outstation

2. Solat Istikharah menjadi suatu amalan walaupun nak
membeli benda yang kecil seperti nak membeli mesin
basuh.

3. Sering membaca Surah Al-Waqiah

4. Tidak terlibat langsung dengan sistem Riba. Dia
menggunakan Kredit Kad Bank Islam. Pinjaman kereta pun
menggunakan sistem pinjaman Islam.

5. Buat baik kepada Ibu bapa dan Ibu Bapa mertuanya.

6. Suka menolong orang dan memberi derma

7. Semua anak-anaknya mempunyai akhlak yang baik dan
jarang kena sebarang penyakit.

8. Dia dah empat tahun menggunakan Toyota Unser,
sekali pun tidak pernah rosak atau menyusahkan nya.

9. Segala masalah yang dihadapi dapat diselesaikan
dengan mudah dan cepat.

Kisah-2
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Ketika saya bujang dahulu saya sering menziarahi kawan
saya, Norizam (bukan nama sebenar) yang tinggal di
Masai Johor. Pada hari Ahad itu saya sampai di rumah
Norizam selepas waktu Asar. Norizam memperkenalkan
Abang dia, Rashid (bukan nama sebenar) yang baru
sampai dari Kuala Lumpur. Rashid berkunjung ke rumah
Norizam kerana untuk menghadiri temuduga pada pagi
Isnin di Johor Baru.

Kawan saya Norizam ini, dalam beberapa hal dia tidak
berpuas hati dengan abangnya. Kadang kala saya tidak
suka mendengar dia merungut tentang abangnya. Petang
itu Norizam merungut lagi iaitu abangnya datang untuk
temuduga kerja sebagai Pengurus Besar (General
Manager). Gaji Rashid sekarang ialah RM10,000 sebulan.
Katanya tidak mencukupi. Dia akan minta gaji sebanyak
RM14,000 sebulan untuk tempat baru ini.

Saya pun berasa hairan gaji RM10,000 sebulan tidak
mencukupi sedangkan hanya mempunyai dua orang anak
sahaja. Beberapa tahun kemudian baru saya tahu kenapa
gaji abangnya RM10,000 tidak mencukupi. Ini ada kaitan
dengan tiada keberkatan hidup.

Perkara-perkara yang pada pandangan saya menyebabkan
Rashid jadi susah ialah seperti berikut:-

1. Banyak sangat terlibat dengan sistem Riba. Pinjaman
Kereta, Kad Kredit, Pinjaman Rumah, Akaun Simpanan
semuanya Sistem Konvensional (Riba)

2. Menggunakan banyak kad kredit konvensional kemudian
bayar pokok
sahaja.Bermakna memakan riba yang berterusan.

3. Sering bertukar kereta sebab kereta selalu
bermasalah walaupun kereta baru (Masalah kena curi dan
kemalangan jalan raya)

4. Sering bertengkar dengan isteri.

5. Isteri sering masuk hospital kerana penyakit
misteri.

6. Anak perempuan sulungnya yang di tingkatan tiga
kena tangkap basah.

7. Suka menengking jika ada orang mintak derma.

8. Soal sembahyang lima waktu dipandang sebelah mata
sahaja.

Kedua-dua kisah ini adalah sesuatu yang lumrah berlaku
di sekeliling kita. Kadang kala kita tidak sedar
langsung atau tidak menghiraukan langsung untuk
mencari keberkatan hidup.